God revealed His love to me
by SL
“Lord I am amazed by You for Your love has taught me to live now. I give you glory and praise and I will live to glorify your name. Amen.”
I am grateful and thankful to God that He brought me to Elijah House. I can testify to His grace and mercy for revealing to me how much He loves me and that I am very precious to Him. I now know what it is like to rest in the Lord.
I really benefited and treasure the teachings at the Basic 1 School for Prayer Ministry. The teachings were so real and practical. During most of the lessons, I could immediately identify with many of the topics (bitter roots, bitter root judgment, stone of heart and the strongholds in my life). At the same time I also learn what I need to do and it is during ministry time that I saw the effectiveness of the teachings.
As I reflected I am thankful for the ministry sessions as it was here that God spoke to me. God showed me my stronghold and revealed His love to me. When I was being prayed for God revealed the great fear I had when I was in utero. I was in a fetus position and I was telling God how much I hate Him. I told God that I was angry with Him for taking my mom away. I wanted to know why He did that. I told Him that I did not want to come into the world because mommy is not with me. There will be no one to care or love me (mom died just after I was delivered and I was given up for adoption).
God in His awesomeness showed me that He was there when I was delivered. He was cradling me and gently stroking me in His arms. During this revelation, I remain in the fetus position, gently stroking my head and rocking myself away. I could then feel God’s love with my heart and I responded to Him. It was an amazing and a precious moment for me.
The next day during my quiet time, God asked me to call Him ‘Pa’. I did and it felt so good. This was the first time for me to verbalize this word as I did not have a dad when I grew up.
God melted my heart further during the graduation day. I was crying uncontrollably and I was not ashamed of it. Usually I would pinch my arm to prevent myself from crying as I am ashamed to cry. However on Sunday evening, I was crying tears of joy and I did not even try to hide myself. I was soaking in the joy of the Lord and until today I am still walking with His joy.
I am thankful for attending this School and I am looking forward to Basic 2 School with excitement to see what else God has in store for me.